I feel like lilac has been following me everywhere recently, from that anorak in Topshop to my new t-shirt from Zara (pictured). Not to forget this lilac lace top from Urban Outfitters I bought in London and now NYX's Vivid Brights Liner in Vivid Blossom which reeled me in just the other day for what now seems to be a beautiful lilac love affair.

One of my first ventures into makeup was a shimmery purple eyeshadow from a palette which I believe came free in a magazine. Just purple all over my lid. And nothing else. So glam. Now I am reliving my purple childhood eyeshadow obsession with a bit more sophistication thanks to NYX's Vivid Brights Vivid Blossom lilac eyeliner. The fresh pop of colour instantly makes me feel just that little bit extra and really boosts my confidence, it's such a fun colour to experiment with for makeup and fashion. Lilac outfit post coming very soon. And for my shimmer for this look, I used KIKO Milano's Cream Crush eyeshadow in shade 12 - Pearly Lilac, which is a beautiful almost holographic lilac in the pot and sheerer on the skin.

Lilac is a colour I haven't tried or given much thought to before (minus shimmery purple eyeshadow) but I'm definitely a big fan now. It is so fresh for summer and also goes great with rose gold/copper pink shades so is perfect for me. Just saying.

Lilac Lilac Lilac

Yesterday I finished my second year at university. This fact is completely terrifying, but also completely exciting. I'm not sure I'll actually be living in Aberdeen again, as I'm set to be studying abroad at the end of this year, and then I'll have work placement somewhere in the world for second semester, and then that could be me graduated! Scary times. But ignoring the future right now, I'd like to share with you what I wore to my Sports university ball, which to me marked the end of second year at university (what exams lol).

Like last year, I attended the RGU Sports Blues Ball with my Cheerleading team, which has been an incredible part of my university experience in Aberdeen. I'm gutted I can't be part of the team next year, I honestly will miss the sport and all my team mates so so much.

Can you see me? (I'm near the back)

If you read my post about Blues Ball last year, you'll know I performed a miracle and managed to get myself a dress for just £6. Six. Pounds. Only six. Amazing I know. Well this year I challenged myself to find an even cheaper dress, but unfortunately I left it a little too late and had to settle for an also good price of £19.50 in the NA-KD sale. This was my first purchase from NA-KD and although it arrived one or two days later than the expected 3 days delivery, I am very happy with their service and would definitely purchase from the company again. Their website is a dream to browse and shop on.

From trying on a few dresses I discovered I am not a fan of dark colours on me, such as black and navy. I felt very uncomfortable wearing these dark tones, however when I put on this burgundy dress it felt so right. I was comfortable, I liked how the fabric was tight on my body and my butt looks great. I have been doing my squats and I am very proud.

I was also pretty proud of my makeup for the day. It had to last from 3pm to about 3am, but I desperately wanted to go all-out extra glam. To make matters worse, I lost my eyebrow kit the other week in a nightclub which was very sad. Yes, I lost my eyebrows on the dance floor. So I've been experimenting with contour sticks and different eyeshadows to find a temporary fix until I can afford to buy another eyebrow kit. Luckily for Blues Ball I managed an okay combination of a contour stick and wet eyeshadow to find the correct shade, but this did take up a good amount of time on the day.

And for once I had no issues with eyeliner - none whatsoever! It just glided on effortlessly. Recently I have began wearing false lashes on nights out, and for Blues Ball I wanted to take them up a notch. False lashes are terrifying the first time you see them in the box. They just look so massive! You wonder how they could ever look natural or realistic on the eye. But luckily my Eylure Texture (No 153) lashes went on effortlessly and were not too over the top. Another surprising success. I'd definitely like to experiment with more eye makeup and eye shadow techniques, so this was a great confidence boost.

The night itself began with just cheerleaders at a member's flat. A few teary speeches were given from girls graduating and leaving this year, and it did honestly make me a little emotional as I'm not sure if I'll ever be rejoining the team or not. But the pres, ball itself and club afterwards was the best way to finish the year with all my favourite cheerleaders. I am so so happy I did join RGU Cheer in first year, met my current amazing flatmates and made so many good friends that I know will be around for a long long while (you're not going anywhere sorry). Thank you to everyone at Cheer who has made the past two years an incredible experience, I hope I've made it a good one for you too!

See you soon.

Uni is Out for Summer and What I Wore to Blues Ball

Well hello there. It has been a while, hasn't it. Too long in fact.

The past two months have flown by, with most of my time being used for university, cheerleading competitions and the gym. As well as trying to be less hard on myself and more self-confident and loving, allowing more me-time to wind down, chill out and recharge my batteries after a difficult period. I'm still not 100% recharged, and I have been struggling with self-doubt recently when it comes to creative pursuits such as blogging, hence the long break. However I still love reading other bloggers and I'm beginning to feel inspired again to create more content myself. So here are some goals for May for some top notch motivation to get me back into feeling more like my creative and happy self.

As I said in my New Year's Resolutions 2017 post, I want to "remember what is important to who I am: staying positive, keeping curious, being kind and supportive of friends and fellow bloggers, trying new things, having fun, staying fit and healthy, being creative, staying sparkly and ambitious, eating eggs benedict and keeping an open mind to everything and everyone."

And I hope these goals will help me on my way.

May Goals 2017

Experiment with blogging

At the start of this year, I originally had planned to narrow down my blog's niche to focus on more specific content. However, as someone who likes lots of things and trying new things, I don't feel this is currently the best direction for Copper Pink. I want to have fun again with blogging as I dip my toes back in the water and so I will be experimenting with content including category types (fashion, fitness, lifestyle, beauty, personal development, mixtapes etc.) and I may even give vlogging another bash. I'm excited to just go with the flow and enjoy blogging again on my own terms, whilst creating some hopefully pretty great and useful content fuelled by my happiness and new-found motivation.

Do well at my new job

Your gal's got herself a seven week summer stint working as a Dior fragrance girl in Aberdeen. It's my first full-time contract, working just over 40 hours each week, but I'm excited to work for a brand I really do admire. I really need to save for when I study abroad in Canada in third year (did I mention that...) and a full-time summer job seems like the best way to do it.

Finish second year at university (and pass my modules and exams lol)

Uni has honestly gone so fast. I can't believe I have almost finished second year. I have one report and one exam to go, and I'll be finished up on May 10th which is very scary. However I am looking forward to third year, in which I'll be studying abroad in Toronto, Canada from the end of August till mid December (how exciting!!). And then for second semester I have a 12 week (or longer) work placement which I will soon be on the hunt for - if anyone knows of any creative industry, fashion or marketing opportunities for next January please let me know! Bring on third year.

Work out a good gym routine

Did you see my pun lol. Recently I have been very committed to the gym and I am definitely feeling a lot stronger which is amazing. For someone who used to hate any form of physical exercise I have definitely come a long way. With my new working hours for the next seven weeks, I want to make sure I stay committed to the gym so am writing up a program for myself to ensure I stick to it. I'm also heading to Malta in June to visit friends and for a break with my friend Ellie, so this is definitely one motivation to stick to the gym and I'm hoping to see a good amount of progress from now. I'll keep you updated on that.

I know I have been a little awol online the past two months, so if you have any questions please feel free to get in touch. I am really looking forward to getting back in touch with my fave bloggers on social media etc. Let me know what your current goals are and I hope you have a fabulous May.

May Goals 2017 (and a Life Update)

I wish all the best to my exes, I hope they are happy in future and learnt something from our relationships, as I have. I want them to be happy because I did and will always love them somehow, but I need to be happy myself too, and I can’t do that with them in my life. I need to put myself and love myself first. We all do.

No one goes into a relationship wanting it to end, no one goes into a relationship wanting to hurt the other person or be hurt themselves. I didn't want my recent relationship to end, but I knew I had to be the one to break it off.

It was one of the most awful days of my life. I hate hurting other people and knowing I have hurt someone. It killed me. But if the thought of ending it was so horrific, why didn't I just stay? I had to leave to save myself. I had to leave to protect my happiness and my self-confidence. The last couple of weeks I felt nothing but numb and that's when I knew I had to do it. I owed it to myself, no matter how hard it would be.

I didn’t realise till now how much shit I put up with, and how poorly I was treated by the person who was supposed to love, care for and respect me. It took me getting out of the relationship to fully understand why I had to. I had to do it for my own happiness. I was miserable near the end and was beginning to forget who I was and wanted to be.

We give our all to the people we love, we would do anything possible to make them happy but in some relationships nothing is ever good enough. Sometimes things just don't work out. We put up with bad treatment because we love them. It sucks because we are the people who always try to and want to see the best in others, and sometimes this can be taken advantage of. We make excuses for how poorly we are treated, saying they are just having a bad day or they don’t really mean it personally, that it’s just their nature and that you are being “too sensitive” and are “overreacting” as you have been told too many times before.

"Getting out is not giving up on someone when staying is giving up on yourself."

It's always difficult to see it from within, but whatever position you are in, think how you would feel if it wasn't you, but a close friend. If you knew your friend's sparkle was being dulled by the one person who is meant to kindle their brightest fire. If you knew your once so positive and excitable friend now felt low more often than they felt high. You wouldn't want your closest friend to go through that, you wouldn't want anyone to go through that. And you shouldn't put yourself through that, because even though it may seem like you have a duty to stay and that maybe you are just "overreacting", if you feel unhappy at all, you have the right to leave.

No one can tell you you are too sensitive or overreacting. If it upsets or hurts you, they should respect that and consider why you feel that way. If you are upset you cannot let it go and allow it to continue. If it can be fixed, then that’s great. But if your partner isn’t willing to listen, then they do not respect you and your relationship. And you deserve so much more than that.

I feel like I became a smaller person, my spark was dulled and I felt nothing but numb near the end. I dampened myself down in order to make my partner feel loved and feel better, I tried to give them what they wanted to make them happy, even if that meant not staying true to myself in the process. And it’s only now I realise how wrong and damaging that is.

You should never make yourself smaller for anyone. Not even if you love them with all your heart. If they truly love you they will love you for who you are, and if they don’t love who you are, then you deserve someone that does. They should admire, appreciate and love the bold vibrant warm welcoming kind soul you are inviting them to, not make you feel bad and ashamed for the qualities that make you, you.

If you feel like you are walking on eggshells with your partner, if you feel like you are just never quite good enough, if you feel under-appreciated, if you begin to doubt who you are and all the good qualities you used to proudly identify with, if issues that have been discussed continue and continue to happen you need to stop "seeing how it goes" and if you feel you have given your absolute all to make them happy and it's still not good enough then you need to get out. I'm sorry, I know it's hard and it's not what anybody wants to hear. It's not what I wanted to hear either. But you need to get out. Just remember, getting out is not giving up on someone when staying means giving up on yourself.

You owe it to yourself to give yourself the best chance of happiness. And while loneliness may seem scary and upsetting, it's better to be alone and eventually happy than stay in a relationship where deep down you know you'll never truly be happy.

Things will get better. You are an amazing, strong, positive, healthy, productive, hard-working, ambitious person with the whole world at your feet. It's okay to not always be okay, it's okay to take time to rest, re-focus on yourself, who you are and who you want to be in future, both single and in future relationships. Decide what you want and stick to it from now on. And thank your ex for showing you that you are your top responsibility, and that you won't make the same mistake again of dampening yourself in order to prop someone else up. Some things just don't work out. Stop worrying about the future right now and don't fret about that extra hour you spent in bed, focus on what time you do have, give yourself a break once in a while and do the things that truly make you feel happy.

Have that obligatory break-up pizza and ice cream (& wine) night with your friends, keep them and loved ones close because you are not alone and you will not be alone forever. It may feel like your ex was the only one for you, but I promise you there are so many people who will love you for who you are and will raise you up on a pedestal alongside them, not below them. Keep yourself busy, write down all your feelings in your journal, get out the house, see your friends and have fun.

You have all the time in the world and the whole world at your feet. Just make sure you are happy and that you put your own happiness first.

Breakups suck, but things will get better.

Breakups Suck

One great way to motivate yourself to get back to the gym and fight through the cold, dark and damp is of course buying some snazzy new sports wear. If you've ever wondered where that girl got those pretty fabulous purple leggings or that strappy crop top, there's a good chance it's from either British and now worldwide retailer Sweaty Betty or Canadian and yoga-loving lululemon.

My Top Athleisure Picks from Sweaty Betty and lululemon

Oh how strange it feels typing 2017 and not 2016 into that title. The years only get faster as each one comes, don't they? Gosh I feel old saying that. I'm pretty sure 2016 was a mixed year for everyone and I know it definitely was for me. I listed a few of my favourite things from 2016 in my last blog post, but now I want to reflect and see if I achieved the goals I set for myself last January, and make some new Resolutions for this year.

New Year's Resolutions 2017

Although I am a big believer of always looking forward, sometimes it can be great to look back at what you have done, what you have achieved and what you are happy about. It is a great reminder of your abilities and friendships and definitely gets me excited for the possibilities for the year ahead.

Here are a few of my favourite things from 2016.

Photos by Helena Willemijn - follow her on Instagram @yogielena

My Favourite Things from 2016

Merry Christmas!

I'm sure you're very busy today seeing friends and family, eating lots of food and eating lots of chocolate - so I'll keep it brief. I would like to share with you my December 2016 Mixtape as a little Christmas present to say a big thank you for your support, lovely comments and messages on the blog and social media from Copper Pink. It's been quite a special year for me personally, but I'll get into that more near New Year's.

In the meantime, I hope you enjoy Christmas Day and my December 2016 Mixtape. Which you'll notice includes exactly zero Christmas music - not something I listen to in my spare time, although I am so so excited for today don't doubt that!

December 2016 Mixtape

Hope you have a fabulous day and do let me know what you're getting up to in the comments xx

Merry Christmas! + December 2016 Mixtape

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