New year, new me. The phrase suggests our past year has sucked and that we are unhappy with who we are. And there's probably at least a little truth there for all of us (hence the phrase). But if we continue to believe this saying, we will forever be waiting for happiness and the perfect year. The perfect year doesn't exist. It's all too easy to remember and focus on just the bad, but we need to regularly remember the good also and be proud of ourselves for how far we have come.

To do this, for 2017 I decided to write down a list of highs and lows at the end of each month in my journal. And you know what? Even when I felt probably my lowest low at points this year, the positives always outnumbered the bad things.

2017: The Highs and the Lows - Mental Health, Canada and Squatting 70kg

Winter coats and I have never been the best of friends. Every year I mentally prepare myself for the long and tiring quest that is hunting down the perfect winter coat. And every year I visit the same high street stores, independent retailers, second-hand shops and online brands multiple times and ever year I end up buying nothing. No coat has ever felt quite right, and when coats can be expensive and a long-term investment, I want to make sure I make it a good one that will actually last for at least a few years.

Photos by Tóra Johannesen

The $10 Winter Coat from Black Market Vintage

"I promise to commit my life fighting for equal human rights for everyone. That is my new life mission." - Kesha

Living in the UK, I never thought I would get the chance to see one of my childhood favourite American artists live. So when Kesha announced her Rainbow tour in August, her first since 2013 preceding her legal battle with her producer, I hunted online for a ticket like the savage fangirl that I proudly am. Unfortunately, at that time she had no UK dates announced. My heart sunk. But then I realised that, fortunately, I would be living in Canada in less than a month's time. And lo and behold, Kesha was touring in Toronto on October 16th. I bought my ticket that same day.

Kesha Rainbow Tour Review - I'm Proud of Who I Am

Tumble dried towels. That fluffy, chilled, cosy, relaxed, content feeling of freshly tumble dried towels. That's exactly what this month's work in progress playlist reminds me of. And is exactly the feeling I'm trying to achieve on a regular basis in Canada. I have now been in Toronto for a whole month for study abroad, and I am quite surprised at how much homesickness has hit me.

Homesickness, Stress and Drifting from Friends - Tumble Dried Towels Mixtape

Hola amigos.

Another Friday, another vlog. Can you believe I've actually managed to stick to this routine for a whole four weeks?? Pretty insane isn't it. Proud of myself.

VLOG | My Week in Bruises | Powerlifting and Lil Yachty

Hey friends, it's Friday once more. I had so much trouble trying to save this vlog it's been ridiculous - like 2am last night ridiculous. BUT it's now up and I'm actually pretty happy with it. After being unsure how I was going to piece this week's footage into anything, it turned out quite alright. This is my first foray into fitness related video content, showing you my best post-gym leg stretch routine after a short vlog about my 15km hike at Rattlesnake Point Conver- Conservation Trail, just over an hour outside of Toronto.

VLOG | My Best Post-Gym Leg Stretch Routine and a 15km Hike in Canada

Hey hey friends, it's that fun time of the week again - vlog Fridays (I've made it two weeks so far this is a very good start). Hoping to share my travels in Toronto with you along the way, I quite enjoy this week's vlog, however in future I would like to make them slightly longer - about 6-8 minutes probably - and with more of me speaking to the camera.

VLOG | Corn Dogs and Cheesecake on a Stick at the Canada National Exhibition

Yes, it has officially been one week since I made the move to Toronto, Canada for four months for study abroad. I have had such a busy week exploring and discovering Toronto, there has never been a dull moment. Even the late night trip to IKEA after our long flight for bedding and towels was fun - it's all part of the experience.

I have decided to create my own '1 second a day' video project while I'm here, but obviously I can't show you that until I have been here for all the 117 days. So until then, I'm going to be uploading vlogs on my YouTube channel (hopefully weekly!), blogging about what I discover in Canada here on and sharing tidbits (or timbits lol) on my Instagram @copperpink as well. So if you would like to keep up with my journey in Toronto these are the places to look!

I have my induction for my course tomorrow morning, and then classes start next Tuesday. But for the past week I've just been living life, making friends and adventuring - so here's one photo a day from my first week in Toronto.

Tuesday Aug 22nd

One Week into Toronto

Hi friends. I am so excited to tell you I have finally moved to Toronto, Canada. I feel like I've been waiting for ages just counting down the days and now I am actually here I still can't quite believe it's real. I am living here for four months as part of my university degree with RGU, studying at Humber College. I have about a week to explore and get settled in to Canadian life until classes begin and I cannot wait. Words cannot express how grateful I am feeling right now.

So instead, I made a video.

I shall hopefully be getting better and better at vlogging with each one, which should be with you weekly. If you have any tips or advice for living in Toronto or anywhere I should visit - please let me know!

See u soon friends,

VLOG | Moving to Toronto, Canada

We've been treated to some top notch bangers recently haven't we? I'm a big believer that music is great meditation, as I am always listening to something no matter where I am or what I'm up to. This month a few song lyrics that used to fly straight over my head have hit home as I can now relate. Which is a pretty incredible feeling which has given me a newfound appreciation for said songs. Hence my July 2017 mixtape.

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July 2017 Mixtape and Kesha's Comeback

There is probably nothing more I enjoy than swimming in the sea at a secluded sandy beach - I've had my yearly supply of that thanks to Malta. Although the idea of swimming at a Scottish beach is perhaps a little far-fetched (although possible in my experience), Scotland really does have some beautiful beaches with fantastic views and vibes all over the place. Here are three of my favourites.

1. Mellon Udrigle, Wester Ross, The Highlands

Every year during my school years (as far as I can remember), my family and I made a trip to Wester Ross in the Highlands in the October school break. Admittedly when I was very young I believe I used to complain about the long walks, but as I grew older and looking back I can now appreciate how lucky I was to see the beautiful Scottish scenery each year. One of our favourite beaches on these trips was Mellon Udrigle. It has everything you could want: a vast white sandy shore, a horizon made up of mountains, ragged rocks to climb, smooth stones to skim and grassy banks with sheep. If you have never visited the Highlands, you need to go just for Mellon Udrigle.

My 3 Favourite Beaches in Scotland

Hi friends,

If you've been reading my blog for a while, you'll remember that time about two years ago that I decided to put fake tan on my eyebrows. This post is still one of my most popular, or most searched for on google (yeah I don't know why either lol). So since that experiment of attempting to find eyebrow makeup that lasts longer than a day and is cheaper than an eyebrow tint at a salon didn't quite work, here I am back with experiment number 2 - Etude House Tint My Brows Gel.

I have never had my eyebrows tinted at a salon, but I believe usually they just tint the hairs you have and not the skin as well (correct me if I'm wrong). I have very sparse brows and so this type of tint would be pretty pointless for me. And even if some salons do tint the skin, I'd like to find a way to result in the same effect in the comfort of my own home for convenience, affordability and to have more control of the process as my eyebrows are my babies and I'm a perfectionist and they must ALWAYS BE THE SAME.

Etude House Tint My Brows Gel Demo + Review

If you weren't aware from my Instagrams and Instagram stories, I recently spent 5 sunny days in one of my favourite places in the world - Malta. This was my third visit to the country, after my initial trip on a school exchange and a girls' holiday two years ago. Ellie and I decided to return just the two of us to meet up with our Maltese friends again and to get a summer that lasts longer than a weekend as it usually does in Scotland.

Recently my commitment to the gym has been at an all-time high. I've never felt stronger, healthier or more confident. My physical health greatly influences my mental health, hence why I've dedicated more time and effort into exercise, outdoor walks and weights (and a little bit of cardio). As further motivation, I decided to treat myself to fancy new swimwear for my holiday. I was excited to see my progress with the suit on, but did also have a nagging doubt in the back of my mind that I would be disappointed with my progress once I saw photos of myself.

Staying positive however, I researched into UK based swimwear brands to shop locally and support smaller independent businesses. And this led me to fangirling over Stay Sick on Instagram.

Treat Yourself with Glasgow Based Stay Sick Swimwear

Well, it's July 2nd. The midpoint of the year.

I have felt quite out of touch with the blogging community in recent months. Although I have still been reading my favourite blogs, I have been taking time to focus on myself and my wellbeing, hence the lack of posts and social media interaction.

2017 so far has been quite a reflective year for me. I began to truly appreciate the importance of surrounding yourself with positive people who treat you well and inspire you, thanks to those who already do and have done so for most of my life, and thanks to those who have not treated me well at all and have been toxic to my mental health. And although I feel like I have been in a bit of a creative rut the past few months, I have taken the time required to remind myself of how I deserve to be treated and what I want for the rest of the year and onwards.

I'm not one who likes to admit when I'm struggling, but I'm beginning to accept that it's better to seek for and ask for help than to suffer in silence. So please bear with me if I'm still not 100% on top of posts and interacting on social media, but I do miss blogging and the community and I really do want to get back into it as soon as possible. And despite the fear of sounding like a broken record after my last couple of posts, I am feeling more open and positive and am still excited for the rest of 2017.

Here are 8 things I've learned in 2017 so far, with the other 9 of 17 I'll hopefully learn in the next 6 months coming at the end of year.

1. You are your number one priority

2. Asking for help doesn't mean you are a failure

3. How to recognise toxic people and how to detach yourself from them

4. Both your mental health and physical health are incredibly important

5. The world won't end if you don't Instagram every day or post on your blog every week

6. It's okay and perfectly normal to not have a clue what you want to do with your life

7. Rest days are just as important and beneficial as working days

8. Although it may not always feel like it, there are so many people out there who will make you feel sparkly every day, you are not alone. Surround yourself with these people.

I have just returned from a short holiday in one of my favourite countries, Malta, and since then I have been experimenting with different creative outlets, and reading new blogs for inspiration and motivation. I am finally gutting out my room, and will be redecorating it with a clean minimalistic style very shortly. It feels very satisfying. I'm excited for my next few weeks of summer holidays and being more active within the blogging community again.

See you soon,

8 Things I've Learned in 2017 So Far

I feel like lilac has been following me everywhere recently, from that anorak in Topshop to my new t-shirt from Zara (pictured). Not to forget this lilac lace top from Urban Outfitters I bought in London and now NYX's Vivid Brights Liner in Vivid Blossom which reeled me in just the other day for what now seems to be a beautiful lilac love affair.

One of my first ventures into makeup was a shimmery purple eyeshadow from a palette which I believe came free in a magazine. Just purple all over my lid. And nothing else. So glam. Now I am reliving my purple childhood eyeshadow obsession with a bit more sophistication thanks to NYX's Vivid Brights Vivid Blossom lilac eyeliner. The fresh pop of colour instantly makes me feel just that little bit extra and really boosts my confidence, it's such a fun colour to experiment with for makeup and fashion. Lilac outfit post coming very soon. And for my shimmer for this look, I used KIKO Milano's Cream Crush eyeshadow in shade 12 - Pearly Lilac, which is a beautiful almost holographic lilac in the pot and sheerer on the skin.

Lilac is a colour I haven't tried or given much thought to before (minus shimmery purple eyeshadow) but I'm definitely a big fan now. It is so fresh for summer and also goes great with rose gold/copper pink shades so is perfect for me. Just saying.

Lilac Lilac Lilac

Yesterday I finished my second year at university. This fact is completely terrifying, but also completely exciting. I'm not sure I'll actually be living in Aberdeen again, as I'm set to be studying abroad at the end of this year, and then I'll have work placement somewhere in the world for second semester, and then that could be me graduated! Scary times. But ignoring the future right now, I'd like to share with you what I wore to my Sports university ball, which to me marked the end of second year at university (what exams lol).

Like last year, I attended the RGU Sports Blues Ball with my Cheerleading team, which has been an incredible part of my university experience in Aberdeen. I'm gutted I can't be part of the team next year, I honestly will miss the sport and all my team mates so so much.

Can you see me? (I'm near the back)

If you read my post about Blues Ball last year, you'll know I performed a miracle and managed to get myself a dress for just £6. Six. Pounds. Only six. Amazing I know. Well this year I challenged myself to find an even cheaper dress, but unfortunately I left it a little too late and had to settle for an also good price of £19.50 in the NA-KD sale. This was my first purchase from NA-KD and although it arrived one or two days later than the expected 3 days delivery, I am very happy with their service and would definitely purchase from the company again. Their website is a dream to browse and shop on.

From trying on a few dresses I discovered I am not a fan of dark colours on me, such as black and navy. I felt very uncomfortable wearing these dark tones, however when I put on this burgundy dress it felt so right. I was comfortable, I liked how the fabric was tight on my body and my butt looks great. I have been doing my squats and I am very proud.

I was also pretty proud of my makeup for the day. It had to last from 3pm to about 3am, but I desperately wanted to go all-out extra glam. To make matters worse, I lost my eyebrow kit the other week in a nightclub which was very sad. Yes, I lost my eyebrows on the dance floor. So I've been experimenting with contour sticks and different eyeshadows to find a temporary fix until I can afford to buy another eyebrow kit. Luckily for Blues Ball I managed an okay combination of a contour stick and wet eyeshadow to find the correct shade, but this did take up a good amount of time on the day.

And for once I had no issues with eyeliner - none whatsoever! It just glided on effortlessly. Recently I have began wearing false lashes on nights out, and for Blues Ball I wanted to take them up a notch. False lashes are terrifying the first time you see them in the box. They just look so massive! You wonder how they could ever look natural or realistic on the eye. But luckily my Eylure Texture (No 153) lashes went on effortlessly and were not too over the top. Another surprising success. I'd definitely like to experiment with more eye makeup and eye shadow techniques, so this was a great confidence boost.

The night itself began with just cheerleaders at a member's flat. A few teary speeches were given from girls graduating and leaving this year, and it did honestly make me a little emotional as I'm not sure if I'll ever be rejoining the team or not. But the pres, ball itself and club afterwards was the best way to finish the year with all my favourite cheerleaders. I am so so happy I did join RGU Cheer in first year, met my current amazing flatmates and made so many good friends that I know will be around for a long long while (you're not going anywhere sorry). Thank you to everyone at Cheer who has made the past two years an incredible experience, I hope I've made it a good one for you too!

See you soon.

Uni is Out for Summer and What I Wore to Blues Ball

Well hello there. It has been a while, hasn't it. Too long in fact.

The past two months have flown by, with most of my time being used for university, cheerleading competitions and the gym. As well as trying to be less hard on myself and more self-confident and loving, allowing more me-time to wind down, chill out and recharge my batteries after a difficult period. I'm still not 100% recharged, and I have been struggling with self-doubt recently when it comes to creative pursuits such as blogging, hence the long break. However I still love reading other bloggers and I'm beginning to feel inspired again to create more content myself. So here are some goals for May for some top notch motivation to get me back into feeling more like my creative and happy self.

As I said in my New Year's Resolutions 2017 post, I want to "remember what is important to who I am: staying positive, keeping curious, being kind and supportive of friends and fellow bloggers, trying new things, having fun, staying fit and healthy, being creative, staying sparkly and ambitious, eating eggs benedict and keeping an open mind to everything and everyone."

And I hope these goals will help me on my way.

May Goals 2017

Experiment with blogging

At the start of this year, I originally had planned to narrow down my blog's niche to focus on more specific content. However, as someone who likes lots of things and trying new things, I don't feel this is currently the best direction for Copper Pink. I want to have fun again with blogging as I dip my toes back in the water and so I will be experimenting with content including category types (fashion, fitness, lifestyle, beauty, personal development, mixtapes etc.) and I may even give vlogging another bash. I'm excited to just go with the flow and enjoy blogging again on my own terms, whilst creating some hopefully pretty great and useful content fuelled by my happiness and new-found motivation.

Do well at my new job

Your gal's got herself a seven week summer stint working as a Dior fragrance girl in Aberdeen. It's my first full-time contract, working just over 40 hours each week, but I'm excited to work for a brand I really do admire. I really need to save for when I study abroad in Canada in third year (did I mention that...) and a full-time summer job seems like the best way to do it.

Finish second year at university (and pass my modules and exams lol)

Uni has honestly gone so fast. I can't believe I have almost finished second year. I have one report and one exam to go, and I'll be finished up on May 10th which is very scary. However I am looking forward to third year, in which I'll be studying abroad in Toronto, Canada from the end of August till mid December (how exciting!!). And then for second semester I have a 12 week (or longer) work placement which I will soon be on the hunt for - if anyone knows of any creative industry, fashion or marketing opportunities for next January please let me know! Bring on third year.

Work out a good gym routine

Did you see my pun lol. Recently I have been very committed to the gym and I am definitely feeling a lot stronger which is amazing. For someone who used to hate any form of physical exercise I have definitely come a long way. With my new working hours for the next seven weeks, I want to make sure I stay committed to the gym so am writing up a program for myself to ensure I stick to it. I'm also heading to Malta in June to visit friends and for a break with my friend Ellie, so this is definitely one motivation to stick to the gym and I'm hoping to see a good amount of progress from now. I'll keep you updated on that.

I know I have been a little awol online the past two months, so if you have any questions please feel free to get in touch. I am really looking forward to getting back in touch with my fave bloggers on social media etc. Let me know what your current goals are and I hope you have a fabulous May.

May Goals 2017 (and a Life Update)

I wish all the best to my exes, I hope they are happy in future and learnt something from our relationships, as I have. I want them to be happy because I did and will always love them somehow, but I need to be happy myself too, and I can’t do that with them in my life. I need to put myself and love myself first. We all do.

No one goes into a relationship wanting it to end, no one goes into a relationship wanting to hurt the other person or be hurt themselves. I didn't want my recent relationship to end, but I knew I had to be the one to break it off.

It was one of the most awful days of my life. I hate hurting other people and knowing I have hurt someone. It killed me. But if the thought of ending it was so horrific, why didn't I just stay? I had to leave to save myself. I had to leave to protect my happiness and my self-confidence. The last couple of weeks I felt nothing but numb and that's when I knew I had to do it. I owed it to myself, no matter how hard it would be.

I didn’t realise till now how much shit I put up with, and how poorly I was treated by the person who was supposed to love, care for and respect me. It took me getting out of the relationship to fully understand why I had to. I had to do it for my own happiness. I was miserable near the end and was beginning to forget who I was and wanted to be.

We give our all to the people we love, we would do anything possible to make them happy but in some relationships nothing is ever good enough. Sometimes things just don't work out. We put up with bad treatment because we love them. It sucks because we are the people who always try to and want to see the best in others, and sometimes this can be taken advantage of. We make excuses for how poorly we are treated, saying they are just having a bad day or they don’t really mean it personally, that it’s just their nature and that you are being “too sensitive” and are “overreacting” as you have been told too many times before.

"Getting out is not giving up on someone when staying is giving up on yourself."

It's always difficult to see it from within, but whatever position you are in, think how you would feel if it wasn't you, but a close friend. If you knew your friend's sparkle was being dulled by the one person who is meant to kindle their brightest fire. If you knew your once so positive and excitable friend now felt low more often than they felt high. You wouldn't want your closest friend to go through that, you wouldn't want anyone to go through that. And you shouldn't put yourself through that, because even though it may seem like you have a duty to stay and that maybe you are just "overreacting", if you feel unhappy at all, you have the right to leave.

No one can tell you you are too sensitive or overreacting. If it upsets or hurts you, they should respect that and consider why you feel that way. If you are upset you cannot let it go and allow it to continue. If it can be fixed, then that’s great. But if your partner isn’t willing to listen, then they do not respect you and your relationship. And you deserve so much more than that.

I feel like I became a smaller person, my spark was dulled and I felt nothing but numb near the end. I dampened myself down in order to make my partner feel loved and feel better, I tried to give them what they wanted to make them happy, even if that meant not staying true to myself in the process. And it’s only now I realise how wrong and damaging that is.

You should never make yourself smaller for anyone. Not even if you love them with all your heart. If they truly love you they will love you for who you are, and if they don’t love who you are, then you deserve someone that does. They should admire, appreciate and love the bold vibrant warm welcoming kind soul you are inviting them to, not make you feel bad and ashamed for the qualities that make you, you.

If you feel like you are walking on eggshells with your partner, if you feel like you are just never quite good enough, if you feel under-appreciated, if you begin to doubt who you are and all the good qualities you used to proudly identify with, if issues that have been discussed continue and continue to happen you need to stop "seeing how it goes" and if you feel you have given your absolute all to make them happy and it's still not good enough then you need to get out. I'm sorry, I know it's hard and it's not what anybody wants to hear. It's not what I wanted to hear either. But you need to get out. Just remember, getting out is not giving up on someone when staying means giving up on yourself.

You owe it to yourself to give yourself the best chance of happiness. And while loneliness may seem scary and upsetting, it's better to be alone and eventually happy than stay in a relationship where deep down you know you'll never truly be happy.

Things will get better. You are an amazing, strong, positive, healthy, productive, hard-working, ambitious person with the whole world at your feet. It's okay to not always be okay, it's okay to take time to rest, re-focus on yourself, who you are and who you want to be in future, both single and in future relationships. Decide what you want and stick to it from now on. And thank your ex for showing you that you are your top responsibility, and that you won't make the same mistake again of dampening yourself in order to prop someone else up. Some things just don't work out. Stop worrying about the future right now and don't fret about that extra hour you spent in bed, focus on what time you do have, give yourself a break once in a while and do the things that truly make you feel happy.

Have that obligatory break-up pizza and ice cream (& wine) night with your friends, keep them and loved ones close because you are not alone and you will not be alone forever. It may feel like your ex was the only one for you, but I promise you there are so many people who will love you for who you are and will raise you up on a pedestal alongside them, not below them. Keep yourself busy, write down all your feelings in your journal, get out the house, see your friends and have fun.

You have all the time in the world and the whole world at your feet. Just make sure you are happy and that you put your own happiness first.

Breakups suck, but things will get better.

Breakups Suck

One great way to motivate yourself to get back to the gym and fight through the cold, dark and damp is of course buying some snazzy new sports wear. If you've ever wondered where that girl got those pretty fabulous purple leggings or that strappy crop top, there's a good chance it's from either British and now worldwide retailer Sweaty Betty or Canadian and yoga-loving lululemon.

My Top Athleisure Picks from Sweaty Betty and lululemon

Oh how strange it feels typing 2017 and not 2016 into that title. The years only get faster as each one comes, don't they? Gosh I feel old saying that. I'm pretty sure 2016 was a mixed year for everyone and I know it definitely was for me. I listed a few of my favourite things from 2016 in my last blog post, but now I want to reflect and see if I achieved the goals I set for myself last January, and make some new Resolutions for this year.

New Year's Resolutions 2017

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